Nightmare

Had a really morbid dream.
I'm still trying to make sense of it
But no, I don't understand

Scene 1
Yunyi Siyun and I were waiting for our math consultation
Wasn't supposed to be us but the other grp couldn't make it
So we agreed. And we were discussing math qns.

I couldn't find what I was trying to find for the rest,
a list of formulas for the areas of different shapes/polygons.
Then I realized my book was outdated. It was from 2004.

Then we waited and waited and Mrs Kong wasn't coming......
So strangely, I looked down the window
And somehow it was the big trees at my house

Scene 2
Another day, another time.
I was eating a cup of jelly. Near me was J's boyfriend, now ex I think.
Sitting at the void deck. Also eating jelly. In fact a tub of jelly.
He looked very sad. (I think jelly = jealousy.)
Because J and her new boyfriend was nearby. We could see them playing.
Each from our own location. J's ex not aware I was there.

I went into the house. My younger cousin was there. Really annoying.
Adults were busy dressing up I think. For what, I have no clue.
Younger cousin and I. We disagreed and argued over some issue.
And then he destroyed my black hairband. I was really pissed.
I started taunting him I think. Challenged me to a duel.
Obviously I won. But he was not bad either. Quite powerful.

I feel like I injured him quite badly. Because he lied unconscious on the ground.
Or maybe I killed him. Things I'll never know.
There wasn't a lot of blood though.

Scene 3
My house again, the big trees.
A funeral. A family sitting near the big trees (not sure if I'm related)
Money (or sth equally valuable) was lost. One of the Aunts was accused of stealing it.
She was suspected of doing so the previous time. It ruined her good reputation.

Family quarrel. Aunt defended herself. Everyone took sides.
Somehow it turned really bad and everyone was screaming at each other.
Many family secrets revealed. Can't remember much.
People were angry, shocked, betrayed. A lot of drama.
Someone took out a handwritten letter (on dhs foolscap -_-)
Found her guilty of the previous crime. Sth to do with inheritance.

Aunt once again blamed for the loss. More people convinced.
Some turned against her. But she was innocent - I suppose, or believed.
Frustrated, and at her wits' end, she threatened to end her life.
She climbed up the big trees. Somehow, filming herself with a video camera.
Committed suicide with a rope. I rmb her saying, "One last swing"
Police sirens. And the video was uploaded on Youtube. The end.


Was jolted awake by a phone call. Am really glad.
Reality seemed so much better. I have no idea what this means though.


This makes me think if I actually was at the scene
Or did I just watch the whole thing off Youtube. I think I knew that Aunt though.
That's why I was very shocked. Was that my family? I don't know.
It had a very TKAM feel to it too. Maybe coz it paralleled the story.
Or that could just mean that it happened in the past. I don't know either.

Confused. And now, afraid to fall asleep.

Update.

Isn't that really creepy I have no idea why I dream of such things, it's by far one of my scariest dreams. But then again I was doing math before I fell asleep so my subconscious could have been somewhat haywire haha. I don't understand my dreams does anyone wanna decipher it for me........but it's not like anyone else would know my dreams any better anyway lol. Sometimes I'm really afraid of what my imagination can conjure.